Mariah Carey songs on wistful rainy days and the future of Abortion Access
Well, that title certainly says it all. And today feels a lot like how much of spring has. This morning was cold, and rainy. I worked from a coffee shop, had my coffee and spicy sauce and formatted a newsletter. I listened to Mariah belt about lovers and let the icon wash over me.
Then tonight as I’m writing, the sun was bright until 8pm. My cat took a nap on my lap in full golden hour, and I took a little cat nap if you will. It’s summer. And this morning was Spring. And last night the supreme court leaked an anti-abortion opinion that has many queer and trans folks feeling very deeply terrified.
Today wasn’t just a rainy day that ended in sunshine. It was a terrible day, with horrible news and horrible takes. It was a damn Tuesday. And as wonderful as Mariah is, her music couldn’t fix the dread in my bones, the nausea in my stomach or the fears being voiced across the Twitterverse as people realize what’s at stake.
Though, I wish Mariah’s “Fantasy” could convince more people that abortions are in fact, life saving, and very much needed and should be free and covered under healthcare coverage.
I chose a 90’s mix for this morning because the rain was too heavy for my usual 70’s rock. And when Mariah and Faith Hill began to sing their love songs, I was reminded of an important fact. Well, more of an important reminder about queer and trans history.
I recently saw a tweet about a genderdiverse couple from Hungary, almost 100 years ago. They were dressed for their wedding, outfits split neatly in two, featuring a groom’s suit on the right half of their bodies and a wedding dress on the left. A hundred years ago.
Did you know we were having abortions a hundred years ago? Even longer than that. Preventative contraception, abortions and reproductive healthcare have ALWAYS included trans and queer people, and have existed long before the United States was formed.
And perhaps most importantly, abortion will continue to exist whether it is outlawed or not.
The gender-expansive elders who came before me, who spent considerable time putting their bodies and lives on the line, knew this. They knew transgender folks had been, and would continue to be a part of history.
White conservative evangelicals may be attempting a move that’s been in the words since Reagan was denying the AIDS pandemic was killing my ancestors, but their claim on abortion is antiquated and outdated. They’re not saving any lives, and they certainly don’t have “the children” at the center of their mission.
I’m reminded of Bonnie Raitt’s, “I can’t make you love me” when I think about these conservative families. Having huge families, indoctrinating them, raising them to believe they should be guilt-ridden for existing, and making it their mission to harass and convert any person they encounter. Dragging their 10+ children to the polls in favor of voting in violent religious men to further their agenda. As a queer and transgender person, I can’t change their minds. Not instantaneously. Not all of them.
But I know there were queer people who had abortions before me, I know we will still continue to get abortions and will continue to do so for a long time. They can certainly try to make it harder — but any biography or memoir of a transgender person from a hundred years ago will likely echo my words here: they won’t be the first, and certainly not the last.
Abortions are life saving, and access to them, safe and insured access to them, is a human right. One that every person, regardless of gender identity, religious affiliation or orientation deserves access to.
I know a small sector of the people in the movement to ban abortion don’t give a fuck about safe abortions, or reproductive healthcare. That’s their ignorance and privilege on full display.
This has been a deeply triggering 24 hours, and I know others who share this religious trauma with me are likely feeling similarly. I wish all of us a good night’s sleep, rest, and to take action in the best way we know how to.
Whether you mobilize, donate, write or speak out — thank you. Abortion access is life saving healthcare, for all of us.
“70 percent of Wisconsin *women live in counties with no abortion clinic. Wisconsin has an unenforced pre-Roe ban.” *people